Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Prayers, Please


All right, you have heard it before, but I felt it was time open up again.
 I've been feeling pretty low these days, struggling to accept where I am, and most of all, being single.
 It doesn't help when an ad on your Pandora is always screaming:
'Are you single?'
 To which I want to reply:
'Yes, as a matter of fact, I am. Thank you for bringing up such a painful subject. Why don't you just give me a paper cut and pour lemon juice on it while your at it?!"
 (Stole that line, if you don't know. LOL)
 It's hard for me to understand sometimes just why I have to be alone right now.
There are days when I want to scream to the Father, 'Don't You understand? I need someone. I need my other half. I feel so empty, like a part of me is missing."
 But then I have to be reminded: 'No, you don't. Right now you only need Me. At this very moment all you need is my love, my strength. Stop looking for something that won't happen until I make it happen."
I came across a verse in Isaiah on a day like this that shamed me.
 The 54th chapter:
 'For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called. For the LORD hath called thee as a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit....For a small moment have I forsaken thee; but with great mercies will I gather thee. In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the LORD thy Redeemer. '
 I realized that what God was trying to tell me.
Right now you may seem lonely, but believe Me, when I bring the right man into your life, all of this waiting will be forgotten, and you will be wonderfully happy.
Now is only the time for patience, prayer, and seeking My face.
 I struggle with feeling unworthy, inept and just plain stupid sometimes, always feeling like I need to be trying harder to better myself.
 These days I've been praying a lot for God to work in my heart, filling me more of Him, less of me, and to help me be content with where I am at this moment of my life.
 But these days it just seems like I'm getting nowhere.
Like the days are flying past, everything moving in a huge rush, and I'm just standing still, the same old clumsy, awkward girl with no purpose.
 Oh, I know we all have a purpose, but sometimes we just feel.... I don't know. Just BLEH.
 So I would like to ask for all of your prayers as well, if it isn't any bother.
Please pray that I learn to leave my destiny in the hand's of the Father, to stop worrying about the future, and that I can grow into the godly woman He wants me to be.
 Forgive my whining, but sometimes we have to open up, don't we?

                                                                      LaKaysha
                                             

20 comments:

  1. (*hugs*) I understand exactly what you mean, LaKaysha! I've been going through a similar struggle, too. I'll definitely keep you in my prayers! <3

    ~Liv
    oliviakfisher.blogspot.com

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    1. And you'll be in mine, Olivia! Thank you :)

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  2. You are in my prayers! *hugs* <3

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  3. I know exactly how you feel! :'( praying!! <3

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  4. I'm sorry you have been feeling so low... I have felt those exact same feelings. Thought those very thoughts.
    Give it time.
    Wait on the LORD.
    It WILL be worth it!

    Love you <3

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  5. I am sorry you are down.:( We are always praying for you! I love you!! <3

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  6. So that's it. ;P
    Even I have a hard time with the feeling that life is passing me by. But it's not. We're where we are because this is where we're meant to be. ;)

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  7. You have always seemed to me like a really, really amazing person, LaKaysha! I have been following your blog for a few months now and your posts never fail to delight me. I will be praying for you. I have been feeling the exact same way recently. You are not alone, no matter what it feels like. I have watched so many people walk in and out of my life and it's one of the hardest things to experience. But times will get better! I heard something cool the other day: "Many times when God isn't changing your circumstance it's because He's mostly concerned with changing YOU within the circumstance. Your character, your inner strength, your integrity matters to Him because they are all everlasting qualities. The wisdom, the strength and the maturity that grows within you are all things you're going to need to sustain the calling God has on your life. Know that there is a purpose in your pain."
    I understand what you are saying and I feel your pain. I know how it feels to be lonely. But I'll bet you are learning so much right now that is going to prepare you for the day when you will meet the man who will love you for the rest of your life. Don't loose faith. Don't give up. God has a plan. You have a purpose and are right exactly where you need to be. He always does what is best for us in the grand scheme. Just let Him show you the way. <3

    Sophie xx

    P.S. Yes, Pandora's ads are a pain!! Goodness gracious, can't they find something else to vaunt besides being single and lonely?! Good grief. ;)

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    1. Thank you so much, Sophia! Your words helped me more than I can even say.... Just WOW...
      I'm so glad you have been enjoying my blog, and it's so nice to know I have another sister in Christ thinking about me and praying for me.
      Great big hugs and prayers your way!

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  8. Aww ... it's a struggle that I know well! And some days are so hard! :( Praying you find hope and peace in the Lord, Lakaysha! He has a plan for you! ^_^

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    1. Thank you! You're in my prayers, too! :)

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  9. I'll pray for you! It's definitely a struggle, but God has his perfect plans. :)

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  10. This life is hard! I'm praying for you, LaKaysha! <3

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    1. And you've always been in my prayers! <3

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  11. Aw, I love this post and totally relate!! Somedays I'm totally content being single, but then there are days when I can help but wonder how long I'll have to wait till God will bring "the one" into my life. But everything you said is so true, and that verse from Isaiah is really beautiful! I've never heard it before; thanks so much for sharing. :) I will certainly pray for you!

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    1. And I'll be praying for you, Natalie! <3
      I came across that verse just by 'accident' when I was flipping through my Bible one day. not really feeling like reading it or anything.
      The words seemed to just jump off the page, and I knew God was trying to tell me something. :)

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    2. Thank you!!
      That's so amazing! <3

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